I Wish

Sometimes dreaming
                I wish
That this pain was fake
                Keep breathing my angel
The current tide of the storm
These foolish games they play
Its taking its toll
                Reach out, call for me
Numbness consumes my insides
The conviction hardly ever notice
                I wish
More so, no hopes
Dreams trampled on
                You’re stronger than they are
I feel so alone
House filled with people
My name they call
                Do I even care?
                I wish
                But you do
A void of existence, like some
                Though I feel nothing
Hot tears stream down my face
                I wish I was dead
                Those moments are brutal
Polish stone, guidance bestowed
I wish
I pray
No longer wanting
I feel the withdrawal
                Believe
Knowing as much I consider
Those helping heats pushing me along
                I wish
Just for once
                My pain
Could no longer could be mine
                I wish